While I stand by my oft-uttered statement, "Parenting is not for the faint of heart" and while I have written about it before (click here), I AM grateful for the opportunity and the responsibility of parenting. It is a role in my life that has stretched me, works to sanctify me, humbles me, fulfills me, and has taught me a lot about myself and about relationships in general. I am grateful for the successes and for the mistakes I make. I'm grateful that I was chosen to be a Mom to two redheaded girls who make my husband and I feel like we won the parent lottery.
I've been thinking about it for over a month. Usually, when I'm in it I'm engaged. But this time? I started it indifferent and I've felt indifferent all along. I should have never started. Hindsight is 20/20 they say and they aren't wrong. So when I opened my eyes this morning it was clear. It's time. Time to quit this 365. This is the first 365 that I haven't posted several of the days, the first 365 that I wasn't super excited about, the first 365 that I've quit. I've changed my social media presence and interactions the past year so this is also the first 365 that hardly anyone has been interested in. Is it the topic or my decision to not be as accessible on social media? Or is it some other reason altogether? Well, regardless...I'm throwing in the towel on this one. I can't say if I'll ever do another 365 again. Time will tell and I will know if and when it's time.
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