I'm grateful for the gift of free will. Sure it would be easier in some ways if we just did what we were told - no moral dilemma, no vacillating, no concern for outcome since it would be out of our control. But free will is a gift because it ensures we aren't robots, that we get to make mistakes and make victories. It ensures that when we choose faith or not that it is our choice and we weren't forced into anything. It gives us a chance to navigate the mountains and valleys of self-discipline, choices, conflict, etc. I'm grateful that I have been gifted with free will by the author of my life, that he doesn't want me to serve him because I am forced to but because I choose to.
I've been thinking about it for over a month. Usually, when I'm in it I'm engaged. But this time? I started it indifferent and I've felt indifferent all along. I should have never started. Hindsight is 20/20 they say and they aren't wrong. So when I opened my eyes this morning it was clear. It's time. Time to quit this 365. This is the first 365 that I haven't posted several of the days, the first 365 that I wasn't super excited about, the first 365 that I've quit. I've changed my social media presence and interactions the past year so this is also the first 365 that hardly anyone has been interested in. Is it the topic or my decision to not be as accessible on social media? Or is it some other reason altogether? Well, regardless...I'm throwing in the towel on this one. I can't say if I'll ever do another 365 again. Time will tell and I will know if and when it's time.
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