You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place, I told him, like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you'll never be this way ever again. Azar Nafisi
I think today's quote sums up perfectly how I feel about leaving certain places at certain times. I can think of a few times that I have left a place and not had the strange feeling but instead a relief! But generally I feel strange and sad when I leave a place I love. It happened when I went to Kenya and had to leave Kenya. It has happened again with my departure from Young Life.
2.5 years ago I came to Young Life on the heels of a deep depression and a time of working from home. I came to Young Life not knowing that it would become an important part of my life in so many ways and would aid in the settling into my skin that my 30's have been all about. So now that I am leaving I feel strange and sad. Not only am I leaving people I love (yes we can still see each other but the day to day interactions will be no more), but I'm leaving a job I actually love (even being at the Front Desk I grew to love) and I'm leaving behind the "Beth" I grew into while there. I think the "Beth" I grew into while there will go with me but there's a sadness in me that I can't just stay that way. Perhaps there is a "fear" as well. Moving on means I have more settling into my skin to do. Some days I'm okay with that, other days I wonder if I have the energy. :) It's a strange, unsettling, sad feeling but part of the "Beth" I have grown into in my 30's is one who sees some of the bigger picture of what God is doing in my life and wants to follow that, even when I may not like. That's tough btw. But worth it in the long run.
Have you ever experienced the strange feeling today's quote talks about?
2.5 years ago I came to Young Life on the heels of a deep depression and a time of working from home. I came to Young Life not knowing that it would become an important part of my life in so many ways and would aid in the settling into my skin that my 30's have been all about. So now that I am leaving I feel strange and sad. Not only am I leaving people I love (yes we can still see each other but the day to day interactions will be no more), but I'm leaving a job I actually love (even being at the Front Desk I grew to love) and I'm leaving behind the "Beth" I grew into while there. I think the "Beth" I grew into while there will go with me but there's a sadness in me that I can't just stay that way. Perhaps there is a "fear" as well. Moving on means I have more settling into my skin to do. Some days I'm okay with that, other days I wonder if I have the energy. :) It's a strange, unsettling, sad feeling but part of the "Beth" I have grown into in my 30's is one who sees some of the bigger picture of what God is doing in my life and wants to follow that, even when I may not like. That's tough btw. But worth it in the long run.
Have you ever experienced the strange feeling today's quote talks about?
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