Today I'm feeling grateful for my burden bearer. Clearly I can't carry my burdens anyway so I might as well let the one who offers to carry them do so. His shoulders are wider and strong than mine and he has endurance that surpasses any I will ever be able to muster up. I'm so weary lately. And my weariness is a mental and emotional weariness that bleeds over into a physical weariness. It's made up of burdens that will take time to work themselves out and I just can't carry them, I feel broken under the strain of their weight. So to have a burden bearer that graciously offers to bear what makes me weary is a relief and I am filled with gratitude.
I've been thinking about it for over a month. Usually, when I'm in it I'm engaged. But this time? I started it indifferent and I've felt indifferent all along. I should have never started. Hindsight is 20/20 they say and they aren't wrong. So when I opened my eyes this morning it was clear. It's time. Time to quit this 365. This is the first 365 that I haven't posted several of the days, the first 365 that I wasn't super excited about, the first 365 that I've quit. I've changed my social media presence and interactions the past year so this is also the first 365 that hardly anyone has been interested in. Is it the topic or my decision to not be as accessible on social media? Or is it some other reason altogether? Well, regardless...I'm throwing in the towel on this one. I can't say if I'll ever do another 365 again. Time will tell and I will know if and when it's time.
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