I'm so grateful for invitations. Invitations to events that celebrate someone or something, invitations to participate in a ceremony/a cause/a program, invitations to walk alongside of someone in their joy/sorrow/confusion, invitations to be a part of someone's life and not just on the fringes. I'm sure there are more ways invitations happen but those are the ones that came to mind immediately. Tonight I received an invitation from my youngest brother and soon to be sister-in-love, they asked me to participate in their wedding ceremony by adding my voice in with a reading of their choice. How special, how honored I feel to be a part of their day in this way. I'm always honored when people invite me into their lives and I try to make sure I express my gratefulness for their belief that I would add to their life in some way.
I've been thinking about it for over a month. Usually, when I'm in it I'm engaged. But this time? I started it indifferent and I've felt indifferent all along. I should have never started. Hindsight is 20/20 they say and they aren't wrong. So when I opened my eyes this morning it was clear. It's time. Time to quit this 365. This is the first 365 that I haven't posted several of the days, the first 365 that I wasn't super excited about, the first 365 that I've quit. I've changed my social media presence and interactions the past year so this is also the first 365 that hardly anyone has been interested in. Is it the topic or my decision to not be as accessible on social media? Or is it some other reason altogether? Well, regardless...I'm throwing in the towel on this one. I can't say if I'll ever do another 365 again. Time will tell and I will know if and when it's time.
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