The thing about gratefulness is that it doesn't discriminate between significant and insignificant, small and large, grandiose and mediocre. It is all encompassing and I'm grateful for that aspect of gratefulness. The reason I bring this up is because today I felt grateful for my jasmine green tea which I happen to also love. (Sometimes we don't love the things/people/etc that we are grateful for, we can be grateful for something but not love it.) When I sip a hot cup of jasmine green tea (sweetened with raw sugar) I feel like my soul is taking a deep breath. No matter where I am or what I am doing when I sip it. And I'm grateful that something so insignificant like jasmine green tea can prompt something so necessary, like taking a deep soul breath, in my days.
I've been thinking about it for over a month. Usually, when I'm in it I'm engaged. But this time? I started it indifferent and I've felt indifferent all along. I should have never started. Hindsight is 20/20 they say and they aren't wrong. So when I opened my eyes this morning it was clear. It's time. Time to quit this 365. This is the first 365 that I haven't posted several of the days, the first 365 that I wasn't super excited about, the first 365 that I've quit. I've changed my social media presence and interactions the past year so this is also the first 365 that hardly anyone has been interested in. Is it the topic or my decision to not be as accessible on social media? Or is it some other reason altogether? Well, regardless...I'm throwing in the towel on this one. I can't say if I'll ever do another 365 again. Time will tell and I will know if and when it's time.
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