Not the kind of fighting, necessarily, that is divisive, damaging, and/or detrimental but the kind of fighting that each of us needs to stay in our relationships - be it the marriage one, the parenting one, or the friendships. We all need to have the fighting spirit in us to make sure our relationships stay current, that complacency doesn't infect them, that they remain healthy and maintained. I'm grateful for the fighting spirit that resides within me. Sometimes it is deeeeeep down and I have to really dig to find it but I always do and I'm grateful for the gift of the fighter in me because I want my relationships to thrive not just survive.
I've been thinking about it for over a month. Usually, when I'm in it I'm engaged. But this time? I started it indifferent and I've felt indifferent all along. I should have never started. Hindsight is 20/20 they say and they aren't wrong. So when I opened my eyes this morning it was clear. It's time. Time to quit this 365. This is the first 365 that I haven't posted several of the days, the first 365 that I wasn't super excited about, the first 365 that I've quit. I've changed my social media presence and interactions the past year so this is also the first 365 that hardly anyone has been interested in. Is it the topic or my decision to not be as accessible on social media? Or is it some other reason altogether? Well, regardless...I'm throwing in the towel on this one. I can't say if I'll ever do another 365 again. Time will tell and I will know if and when it's time.
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