Every morning I drive our redheads to school. We bicker over the radio stations, discuss homework, I get to hear about this person or that person and the most recent drama, sometimes I have to lay down a "law", I stop and get them treats every so often if we leave on time, and we sing along to the Disney station when nothing else is on. For 30 minutes every day the redheads and I are captive to one another - some days we are all quiet, other days we are all clamoring to be heard above the other. On these drives I have had some great discussions with them - individually and all together. Some days I groan, we all do actually, about the drive but really every day I am more than happy to have this time in the car with my teenage redheads. These years are scary and wonderful for all of us and these morning drives give us all a measure of comfort I think.
I've been thinking about it for over a month. Usually, when I'm in it I'm engaged. But this time? I started it indifferent and I've felt indifferent all along. I should have never started. Hindsight is 20/20 they say and they aren't wrong. So when I opened my eyes this morning it was clear. It's time. Time to quit this 365. This is the first 365 that I haven't posted several of the days, the first 365 that I wasn't super excited about, the first 365 that I've quit. I've changed my social media presence and interactions the past year so this is also the first 365 that hardly anyone has been interested in. Is it the topic or my decision to not be as accessible on social media? Or is it some other reason altogether? Well, regardless...I'm throwing in the towel on this one. I can't say if I'll ever do another 365 again. Time will tell and I will know if and when it's time.
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