Once a month my home church makes and serves dinner at a homeless shelter here in town. We even have our kiddos serving food and (hopefully) engaging with the people who pass through the line. This night never fails to prompt gratefulness in me. The gratefulness doesn't come necessarily in the ways one might think. Of course, I am grateful that our family doesn't need to utilize the services of this particular shelter but gratefulness always comes upon observing/interacting with some of the residents there. Sometimes I run across one, or more, who challenge me in my Gratitude Attitude and you know what? I need that. I need the refocus their outlook provides. I need to be reminded that we have a lot to be grateful for. Hearing their stories, watching them do the best they can to find a job or work toward getting back on their feet always provides me the reminder that every single one of us is always "one paycheck" away and we ought not take anything for granted. And I am grateful to rub elbows with people that I might not ever otherwise, I have met some lovely, and very fun, people over the years of doing this.
I've been thinking about it for over a month. Usually, when I'm in it I'm engaged. But this time? I started it indifferent and I've felt indifferent all along. I should have never started. Hindsight is 20/20 they say and they aren't wrong. So when I opened my eyes this morning it was clear. It's time. Time to quit this 365. This is the first 365 that I haven't posted several of the days, the first 365 that I wasn't super excited about, the first 365 that I've quit. I've changed my social media presence and interactions the past year so this is also the first 365 that hardly anyone has been interested in. Is it the topic or my decision to not be as accessible on social media? Or is it some other reason altogether? Well, regardless...I'm throwing in the towel on this one. I can't say if I'll ever do another 365 again. Time will tell and I will know if and when it's time.
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