I love E2 (think of that as e-squared). I love being an Auntie to them. What I don't love is the distance but it is what it is. We make the best of it. My nephew and niece are just about the most amazing kiddos ever. I adore them. They make me feel grateful for numerous things. When I get to see them and interact with them I am grateful. Their smiles make me grateful. That I have had the simple pleasure of holding them as newborns and breathing in their smell and rocking them to sleep makes me beyond grateful. I'm grateful that despite the distance my awesome brother and seester (in law) post a picture a day of them so we can see them daily and not feel like they have grown up in a blink. (Which it feels like anyway but seeing them everyday helps it to not feel so jarring!) Here's some recent pictures of E2 (both of their names start with an "E" thus I dubbed them e-squared when the second one was born!).
I've been thinking about it for over a month. Usually, when I'm in it I'm engaged. But this time? I started it indifferent and I've felt indifferent all along. I should have never started. Hindsight is 20/20 they say and they aren't wrong. So when I opened my eyes this morning it was clear. It's time. Time to quit this 365. This is the first 365 that I haven't posted several of the days, the first 365 that I wasn't super excited about, the first 365 that I've quit. I've changed my social media presence and interactions the past year so this is also the first 365 that hardly anyone has been interested in. Is it the topic or my decision to not be as accessible on social media? Or is it some other reason altogether? Well, regardless...I'm throwing in the towel on this one. I can't say if I'll ever do another 365 again. Time will tell and I will know if and when it's time.


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