I'm grateful today for hugs. Hugs from a friend that I haven't seen in way too long, hugs from a friend because she saw I needed comfort. Hugs that I give to someone who needs comfort, hugs that I give to friends who I have a heart connection with and it is felt in our hug. Hugs in greeting and hugs in departing. A hug is something given and received that communicates the person is valuable in some way, they are worth entering into their space (sometimes their very messy - emotionally or physically - space) and they are worth the touch of another. I send a lot of virtual hugs since a lot of my heart-connection friends aren't even in the same state as me. I hope they know when I say: {{{hugs}}} I am doing my best to embrace them across the miles. I know when they say it to me that they are communicating that they are reaching out to bridge the gap between us with some love. I'm grateful for hugs and all they can communicate when words don't come easy or when emotions are high.
I've been thinking about it for over a month. Usually, when I'm in it I'm engaged. But this time? I started it indifferent and I've felt indifferent all along. I should have never started. Hindsight is 20/20 they say and they aren't wrong. So when I opened my eyes this morning it was clear. It's time. Time to quit this 365. This is the first 365 that I haven't posted several of the days, the first 365 that I wasn't super excited about, the first 365 that I've quit. I've changed my social media presence and interactions the past year so this is also the first 365 that hardly anyone has been interested in. Is it the topic or my decision to not be as accessible on social media? Or is it some other reason altogether? Well, regardless...I'm throwing in the towel on this one. I can't say if I'll ever do another 365 again. Time will tell and I will know if and when it's time.
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